Sick-Of-You--97

I try to stay away Or I try to love you But neither works I always fail to When I think back Meeting you is The biggest mistake Of my pathetic life Thoughts of you Put me in ruins I can't move on I can't go back I'm frozen in this State of disrepair And now I realize It's not your fault It's truly my fault For letting you in In the first place And falling for you If I hadn't done so I might still be whole I could move on And not look back.

I need to say I lied to you I told you false And it hurt me To lie to you It doesn't usually Hurt me to lie But to you, love, It does It makes me sick That I even can.

Cold is all I've come to know. The darkness is my best friend. Sorrow and grief hold me together. I'm trapped and just wishing for an end.

Talking Texting Hanging Smoking Kissing Cuddling Loving Doubting Distancing Thinking Leaving Trying Living "Forgetting" "Remembering" Contemplating Regretting Missing Wanting Hurting Falling Crying Breaking Drowning Bleeding Fixing Mending Struggling Fighting Trying Healing Relapsing Needing You Again.

She thinks of him With warm fondness. Wanting to be his, To have him as her own. She finds comfort In the happiness, The joy of friendship, And long conversations. As time goes on She opens up again. Realizing more and more She had always cared, Didn't ever stop caring, Made past mistakes, And ruined the good That they had once had. She missed him lots During those months That they didn't speak. Missed his smile, The way he laughed, And the light in his eyes. The sweet text messages, Meaningful hugs, And fell of his hand in hers. Now that he's back, Back in her life again, She'd give almost anything To keep him there with her.

Torn between feelings Of missing you And wanting you Or just not caring It's harder than I thought To move on from you To get over you I really do still care But I can't go back To how we once were I have to stay strong And not look back with want

I look at your face In the small flame I watch you light up Wanting the same We sit in the dark Getting somewhat high I feel electrified With you by my side

So many feelings for you Yet to be figured out But I'm fine for now Just being a good friend

I hate you one minute But then miss you the next It's an endless cycle Of rage and pain I fall now and again Wishing you were here Wanting your love And your sweet texts But then I remember The true value I hold I'm worth more Than you ever showed There's a part of me That will always care But with strength from others I rebuild my heart Piece by piece So it won't need you And I can be happy Without you in my life

I hate you You're a waste I'm naive And I hate it I wasted time On you You're pathetic Yet so am I So many months I couldn't move on So many relationships That could've lasted Getting nowhere With things that are Actually important Because I was stupid You're a lowlife Without success I couldn't see it I deserve better Than your drunken texts I don't want anything To do with you anymore Go away. Leave me alone.